Monday, December 11, 2006

The sum of all my fears... (with apologies to Tom Clancy)

Okay, let it never be said that I'm not man enough to look inside and figure out what sends me to the corner, curled up in the fetal position. If Dave can do it, after all...

I fear:

1) That all the world's major religions are wrong, and Death=nonexistance.

2) That the reason I have yet to publish a story or sell a screenplay is because I, in fact, suck.

3) That I have made misakes in my life that I will never truly recover from.

4) That no one that actually reads my blog really cares what I say here.

5) That no one but me and god actually see all the good I have done just trying to leave this planet a better place than I found it.

6) That I am a loser, but am too preoccupied to notice.

6a) That no one takes me seriously.

7) That what I think is "Love" isn't, but I'll never experience the real thing and will thusly never know for sure.

8) That the people I care about have no clue how much they really mean to me.

9) That when I switch over to blogger beta, I'll lose all my previous posts, and Google will be able to track my movements for the CIA.

You're wrong, Dave. This wasn't enlightening... it was depressing.


Lauren said...

Maybe Dave meant it would be enlightening to the rest of us? :)

The only problem with your really heartfelt posts is that they are hard to make short, pithy comments about. But don't let that imply that we don't care about what you have to say. It might just mean that we aren't brave enough to reply in kind.

Rob the Webkahunah said...

And I kinda know that, Lauren... but this post is all about those stupid, irrational fears that won't go away no matter how much logic you apply to them...

Let it never be said that I'm not willing to admit to being more than just a bit insecure.

RingoWolf said...

it'll make you feel better

Andy said...

Hey may not take the fear away, but I still read your blog whenever I get a free chance, and I usually end up laughing as hard as I did when we hung out at Bienville. Take care of yourself!